wish list 2006
Saturday, December 31, 2005
For the last four year instead of New Years Resolutions (which nobody ever keeps anyway) I make a wish list for the year ahead, asking the universe to provide those things I want to accomplish during the year. I then stick it on my fridge so the universe can see it.... well, the universe and any nosy visitors...
I've also learned to be fairly specific with the list... the first year I asked it to provide me with a "relationship with a warm, funny, caring, sexy guy"... I found the perfect guy... only he wasn't interested back... the universe has an evil sense of humour... suffice to say, that got spelled out more specifically the following year!
Mostly I just refine the list year after year, look at where I'm at, where the previous year's list was aiming, and alter accordingly.
This year I've decided that in addition to the universe checking out the list on my fridge, that it may pay more attention if the list gets a wider audience... so...
Wish List 2006
- To continue making peace with being alone
- To engage only in sex that I find physically and emotionally fulfilling
- To continue to make peace with myself inside and out
- To continue my walking routine, including drinking water and eating cutoff
- To find a permanent job that challenges and interest me
- To be financially independent again
- To be more positive and spend time only with positive people
- To return to growing and developing my photography
- To regularly do things that scare and/or challenge me
- To return to paying my accounts on time and with ease
- To return to being calmer and less angry and frustrated
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May all your wished come true. Happy New Year!
To you and all your readers, may 2006 be better for us all than was 2005. Peace, love and some really good sex...Happy New Year!
what does eating cutoff mean?
nice list!
That's what I get for taking shortcuts... And I should have added a link in when I originally wrote the post...
Basically it means I stop eating at 8:30pm every night... only liquids after that time.
"To continue making peace with being alone"
I've written about loneliness so many times that now seems like it's all I write about. And the notion alone scares the hell out of me: for all of live's grayness, loneliness is black, thoroughly. No matter if you're twenty-two or thirty-one, if you're lonely, you're lonely. Sometimes it's all-consuming, all "there" that you wanna put it in a box and take it around with you - just so everyone can see it as obviously as you feel it.
Then I came across this paragraph from a book I'm reading, and I thought to myself, what a brilliant passage to kick off the new year with! I hope it inspires you as it did me.
Being lonely, being alone, for many people, sucks. I get it, I get it, I get it. But still I have to say to that, yes, my true belief is that being with somebody who makes you feel shitty or doesn't honor the person you are, is worse.
The statistics are bleak. But don't use statistics to keep you down or keep you frightened. You can't do anything with these statistics except scare yourself and your girlfriends. So I say, "Fuck statistics." It's your life — how dare you not have faith in it!
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Let's start with this statistic: You are delicious. Be brave, my sweet. I know you can get lonely. I know you can crave companionship and sex and love so badly that it physically hurts. But I truly believe that the only way you can find out that there's something better out there is to first believe there's something out there. I'll believe it for you until you're ready.
Here's to a brilliant new year!
There's a marked difference between being alone and being lonely crave... I can make peace with the former, but can only endure the latter... I'm a born loner anyway, I enjoy my own company and don't get "lonely" that much really (as a general rule, the great seething mess of humanity annoys the crap out of me)... but making peace with being alone is a whole other animal, and it's still a work in progress. To cut a long story short, I know that my path is one that is meant to be walked alone, and I'm okay with that.
That I agree. Sorry I misread your post, maybe I was too excited in my own revelation that I wanted to share it - however irrelevant though it was in this case! ;)
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